It's almost that time.....

I went in this morning for my blood work and ultrasound. The u/s tech said everything looked great. I waited for Lisa and she said we needed to sign the consent forms for the thawing process and for Clay to be allowed in the hospital procedure room. I was written two new prescriptions that I am to start tomorrow. One is tetracycline and the other one is medrol. I took both of these with the fresh cycle. They called the IVF lab to let them know to start the thaw tomorrow. They are going to call me sometime Tuesday afternoon to let me know if we are going to transfer on Wednesday or Friday. I am hoping and praying that they make it thru the thawing process and that at least two get to blasts. Dr. Taylor said everything is looking good and he would see me sometime later in the week. After I left the office Lisa called and said they received my blood work results back and that Dr. Taylor wants me to start the estrogen patches today. I have to put two on and change them on Thursday. I have to continue to wear these also until the pregnancy test. I started the progesterone today and it made me very drowsy and I have a terrible headache. It will hopefully be well worth it in the end.

Back to the RE... FET scheduled

Clay and I went back to the RE's office this morning for my blood work and ultrasound. They said everything looked great. We waited almost two hours for the results and spoke to Dr. Taylor. He said we are ready to move forward with the natural FET. We weren't sure when to expect this FET and the doctor told me to trigger tonight with Ovadrel around 8:00 to fool my body into thinking it was time to ovulate. On Monday he wants me to start the progesterone capsules twice a day. I was told they would make me feel really drowsy and tired. I have to take those everyday until our pregnancy test. He said on Tuesday they are going to thaw out vial 1 and let's hope and pray two get to blasts stage. I will know Tuesday evening whether we are doing a day 3 or a day 5 (Wednesday or Friday). My husband and I were like OK.......so quick. We didn't expect that. So , here is to a successful FET!!!! I go back Monday for more blood work and another ultrasound.

Cycle # 2

Well, we went back to the RE today and after speaking to him, I must admit I feel better. He told us that he was taking a chance and it would have been "luck" had we gotten pregnant. He also told us that they were taking a guess on what two embryos to go with. They were not able to grade them because it was too early to tell. He said given the facts, the hurricanes back to back and all we are lucky to still have some embryos to work with. Most of the patients were told to cancel their cycle. So I am glad we made it to retrieval. That is a huge step over with.


With that being said, he is waiving all fees to do a FET!!! I was thrilled that he is doing this. So many doctors are in business for the wrong reason, and he brought back the sense that there are good people out there still. The only thing that we will have to pay for is the hospital and that is $350. That is a load off of our shoulders. We are going to do a natural cycle. No stims at all. Since they had to freeze all of the embryos on day 2 we are not sure how many are viable. We have 3 vials . The first two and the ones that looked good on day 2. There are 10 of those. The last vial contains the last 4 that were not looking promising , but due to Louisiana state laws they had to keep them until they could monitor them for at least 24 hours and make sure they were bad. So the doctor said we have 10 embryos to watch. What they are going to do is when it is almost time to do the transfer they are going to thaw vial one. Pray that at least 2 get to blastocyst stage. They will then transfer those. If they do not get to blastocyct stage then we will have to wait until the following month and try one more time on vial 2. He said vial one should do it, but in this business you never know. So, if that doesn't work we are back to square one.

I go back to the RE on Friday Sept. 29th for blood work and u/s to see where we are at in our cycle. He said we should be able to put two more embryos in within the next 14 days (or close to it). Keep your fingers crossed.

One of my proudest moments

Well, my daughter came home from school yesterday eagerly awaiting to hear if she was going to be ab BIG sister again. I knew this was going to be tough and my husband said , " Kayla , I am sorry but it didn't work !" She just stood there in shock and stared at the both of us and gave each of us a hug and said "I am so sorry!" I was being strong and keeping my mind preoccupied all evening between homework, cheer practice and dance class. Well, we were on our way home from dance class and she just looked at me and said " Mom, you don't have to be strong for me. It is OK to cry and to be upset. You lost two babies today and if it was me I would be sad and crying. Mom, I am sad to. I lost two brothers or sisters. Please don;t think you did anything wrong mom. You didn't. It was a rough time and it is not your fault. The hurricane rushed you and you did everything you could. We had extra people here and no power and you just couldn't relax." I just sat there in the car, listening to every word she was saying. Then I started to cry, not because I was sad, but because there sitting beside me was my child, my rock for so many years and through so many tough times in our life telling me exactly what I really needed to hear. She is just a child , 11 years old and so wise beyond her years. She said, " Mom, I really think you should try one more time. I just know in my heart it is going to work out next time. Will you at least think about it? I would be so happy if you would try one more time." I know that as a parent I must have done something right. Who at that young of an age understands what we as moms trying to have a baby struggle and go through ups and downs and then tells us it is going to be alright? I am so proud of her and my husband and I for raising such a kind child. She assured me I was strong and I have been through worse , not to give up hope.
After she went to bed last night, I just laid there and thought of the words she said. It brought me to tears and I am so unbelievably proud of her and of myself for raising such a wonderful child...and thankful to God that he gave her to me in the first place. =)

Negative Beta Today

We got our results this morning. Not the news I wanted to hear, but I just had that feeling. I just felt like they rushed the whole thing and in the bottom of my stomach it was not the right timing. It is what it is you know. I also am upset because they told me on the day of my transfer that the remaining embies would be watched after and that we would get a call on day 3 and day 5 to let us know the progress. We were assured that someone would stay with the embies until the hit blastocyst stage and then they would freeze them. Well, they never did call. On Friday we finally got in touch with them and they told me we had 14 left. I took that to mean that we had 14 to reach blastocyst stage. Today we find out that is not the case. The froze them all on day 2. The never even got to the blastocyst stage. They want me to do a natural cycle next month and when it is time to do the egg transfer (3 days before the transfer) they are going to thaw them and let the get to blastocyst stage. I asked are they able to make it thru the thawing process since they are day 2 embies. She has assured me that they have as good a chance as any other day 5 embie. I am not sure I believe that with all that has gone on up to date. I am not trying to sound negative, I just feel let down. She also told my husband that they only do a day 2 transfer in an emergency and only if they know the couple have at least one more try if it doesn't work. I honestly wish they would have told us that and let us make the decision. If they were going to freeze them any way, freeze them all and get through the hurricane and go from there. So now we are playing the waiting game again. She told me as soon as I get my cycle to call them and then go in for my blood work. I also have an appt Tuesday with the RE to discuss what happened and to get the details of the natural cycyle. She said it would cost an extra $1400 and they are going to try next month. I hope I am ready. I will keep you posted. Trying to remain positive.....